-- in his letter to me from October 22, 1989
He often offered to drive or to meet me at circuses playing in the area, though never once did I actually watch a circus performance with Don. Usually — and this was fun, I will admit — we would nonchalantly wander into the backyard, as if being “with” the show, merge with the actual staff and continue right on in through the back door. Victory! Free seats! Oh, the thrill of the illicit walk in!
Perhaps Don had taught me well. In my youth, I relished being able to slip through anonymously. I practically walked into the Oakland arena when the Russians were playing there. Talk about class crash. Well, my bank account held a near zero balance. That was my excuse then. What was yours?
My most disillusioning experience with Don was the time he offered me a ride to Carson & Barnes, which was playing in an East Bay location that would have required my taking two or three bus rides to get there. Relief! As it turned out, he went the day before — he often planned to spend several days around a circus lot — but evidently was not nearly as well received as he might have expected. So he called up to tell me that he would not be going. That felt cold.
Or maybe he had encountered insulting indifference to a Circus Report pitch. He was forever struggling to sell new subscriptions, in order to replace a continuous stream of non-renewals.
When we did go together, he escaped our company the moment we entered, and vanished – somewhere into that special space where show people lived and worked. I would sit out and watch the show, and meet up with him afterwards. He lived for the validation of circus peple.
May 18, 1983: "Was in Wally Naughtin's trailer when there was a knock on the door and in walked Vargas. He acted like he was happy to see me. Another time he was going through the backyard and came over to tell me that he had been selling tickets and said, do you know the people who buy those tickets are crazy."
I recall his once actually finding me in the mezzanine seats — we both happened to be at Ringling in the old Oakland Auditorium. Plenty of spare chairs that day. He sat down next to me and grumbled a little, something about the show. He must have been not very welcome that day.
The Felds were none to thrilled by invading circus fans. In a particularly revealing letter, dated August 24, 1984, Don wrote of how unwelcome he was suddenly made to feel when, while walking up a ramp at the Cow Palace between the backyard and the arena, he was confronted by a former center ring star, now the performance director:
“Guess what. Charlie Bauman told me to get out and I didn’t belong there.”
“I’ve often heard from others that Bauman is a very difficult man to get along with and he has been rough on others who come to visit. Even to the point of going up in the seats and telling them they have to leave and can’t have a free seat at the circus.”
“He never does look anything other than grouchy. He must have a miserable life”.
Or maybe the Felds had been hounding Mr. Bauman to do the job?
Sometimes, when having gone to a circus on my own, from my seat in the audience I would spot him down by the performers entrance, standing there with his arms folded, lost, I supposed, in a dream of being One of Them — maybe the big boss himself. Of being with it and for it.
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Next: Don at his day job, and on the road with his California Varieties show.
first posted 11.18.19
second in a series
3 comments:
These days we have instant contacts and communications world wide. In the past Don provided a much needed link for circus people. I am sure, that he didn't do it as a source of income.
Chasing Big Tops Together..., yes, I remember those days accompanying Don Marcks well. I think I was 13 the first time my parents allowed me to visit the "BIG SHOW" as he used to always
referred to any circus, whether it was big or miniscule like John Winn's Europarama up in your neck of the woods in Santa Rosa. "Solemn but fun in his own way" I only knew Don a sliver of the time you did David but don't know as I could come up with a more accurate and concise description of Don's persona.
Alex Smith
Thanks much, Alex. Your comments mean a lot to me. I have enjoyed working on these posts, traveling through Don's letters, and remembering.
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